Monday, May 23, 2011

Weigh-In | 5.23.11

Happy Monday to you!
How many of you feel like Garfield at most weigh-ins?
Man, I know I do! 
Current weight:  255.4

So, yeah - I skipped another week.  I weighed in last Monday.  It was my husband's birthday, and I was up a few pounds.  Blogging was the last thing I wanted to do.  So I kept pushing it aside.  A week flew by. 
Today...I'm up again.  Saturday, I was down 3 pounds.  I was excited!  Two days later, up.  So frustrating!  I worked out pretty hard last week - and my eating hadn't been too bad!
I hate weight fluctuations.  I know I shouldn't weigh myself more than once a week. 
I like to know where I stand, though.  Whatever the outcome, up or down, it typically keeps me in-check. eating hasn't been totally under control.  I'm working out quite a bit, but, not enough.
I don't have the same focus I had when I started this thing.  It's constantly on my mind, though.  I've never NOT thought about my eating or exercising.  Ya know?  I'm doing enough to get by, but it's just keeping me at the same weight.  Maintaining is a good skill to learn - but at this point, I am NOT wanting to maintain.  I want to lose!  I'm so stinkin' tired of being fat!  I really need to get my food log going again.  It has been really hard to keep it going lately.  We've been really busy at work lately....which is one main reason I've been kinda lax about it.

I've been tossing around a few ideas.  I've thought of going to a monthly weigh-in.  I get kind of frustrated and don't want to blog when I'm up.  It sucks...but it's part of it.  I need to just suck it up.  I'm afraid if I don't weigh weekly - I won't blog but once a month.  Not enough.
I've also thought about keeping my weekly weigh-ins and maybe posting daily.  Maybe posting a food log?  I've wondered if it's out there for the world to see - perhaps I'll be a little more diligent?  Probably the wrong motivation.  Whatever works, though, right???

Stay tuned for a post I've wanted to do for a while.  I may buckle down and get this one done tonight.  If not tonight - expect it by the weekend.  It's an experiment of sorts.........

For now, though....I'm going to Turbo Kick!  I'll punch & kick some of this frustration.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Weigh-In | 5.9.11 & Race Review

So, as some of you may have read from my sneak peek,  I am down 3 pounds this week!  Yay!  I wasn't expecting that this morning, but there it was!  Good stuff!

This past Saturday - as you may know, I ran the Susan G. Komen "Race For The Cure" here in Charleston, WV. It was my first 5K in about 6 years.  I ran the race in memory of my Aunt Debbie.  It was a moving thing for me to write her name on the "in memory" tag and have it pinned on.  

I had trouble finding anyone from my team at work (we didn't plan that well).  I found a place closer to the back of the runners.  Or what I thought were runners.  They didn't have a clearly marked area for runners & walkers (ugh).  There were both timed runners (with bibs) and regular runners.  I was in with a bunch of people who had on bibs.  I finally spotted two runners I knew - my cousin David & his wife, Sarah!  Once we were off, we couldn't run!  We were in with walkers!  Whaaaaat!?  I crossed the start walking!!!  I was so frustrated and mad!  I knew when my foot crossed, that my time was ticking!  After a few minutes of walking, I saw some ladies running around the crowd on the other side of the boulevard.  I squished my way through a bunch of people with lots of "excuse mes" and finally started running.  Unfortunately, I adopted the mindset that I needed to make up time, sooooo I ran too fast at first.  Annnnd, I wore out rather quickly.  To be honest, before I made it to the turn around, I was already worn out.  I wanted to walk SO BAD! 
I kept telling myself I could do it...  
I kept reminding myself who I was running the race for.
That a month before - I had run 8 miles.
Surely I could make it through this!
I didn't walk.
I ran.
The whole way.
My time was 6 minutes slower than my practice (46:17). 
But, I did it!

Here are a couple other pictures from the morning:

Me, my cousin David & wife, Sarah - pre race

We ran into some others from our church post race!  Yay!  
We're actually planning to have a church team next year! :)

Moving forward... 
I am already geared up for a road trip 5K in September!  My husband & some friends are going to D.C. to participate with our friend, Jamie in the Prevent Cancer 5K!  I'm looking forward to actually training for this race.  The weather has been pitiful around here much rain!  So hopefully I can get outside even more and train, train, train for the next race!  I would LOVE to see that time down in the 30s!  Time will tell.

I'm officially motivated again.  
It's time to kick this "junk" to the curb once and for all!
I hope you all have a great week!

Weigh-In | 5.9.11 [Sneak Peek]

Down THREE POUNDS this week! :) 
Will give full update later tonight!
Annnnd a little pic to tide you over...

Monday, May 2, 2011

Weigh-In | 5.2.11

So, I guess it's time to face the music.  I'm sure some of you noticed I wasn't around last week.  I think that's only the 2nd time since last August that I've missed a weigh-in post.

I had a ridiculous week.  RIDICULOUS.

This week I am up 2.6 lbs from my last weigh-in post.  I did weigh in last week - and was up .4.  I wasn't even really annoyed or bummed about it... for whatever reason, I just ate.  And ate....and ate some more.  I thought about weight-loss.  I knew what I was doing the whole entire time I was eating last week. 

As the week came to a close - I knew today was going to be tough.  I will honestly say that the thought of ending this blog crossed my mind.  I thought of deleting my Skinny Girl Facebook page.  It gets tough to share all this stuff on here.  These weeks especially.  NO ONE likes to admit failure.  I've become a little bored with the whole thing........ even though I have a couple of new ideas for it........ time gets in the's hard!  I never had any real thoughts about quitting my weight-loss journey - which is great, right!?  I guess it's just the work that goes into keeping this up. 

On a positive note, I did work out last week.  Things could have been way worse than they are.  I did Turbo Kick twice last week, I ran & walked... I think I got in 3 great workouts - and a couple little ones.

This week is going to be big....this coming Saturday I am running my first 5K in 6 years.  I'm not really nervous.  I KNOW I can do it.  If I can run 8 miles....I can definitely run 3!  I'm a little concerned, though - because the last couple of times I've gone out to run - I haven't been able to keep it up.  I'm not sure why.  Probably just laziness.  Oh well, I'll get it together.  I'm sure Saturday will be different.  I won't let myself walk.  I'm hoping to pull off a personal best.  The thrill of competition will probably help. 

Well, wish me luck!  Hopefully come next Monday, there will be less of me!  Hopefully a more positive me - as I get back into the swing of things this week!