Tuesday, November 15, 2011

How Did I End Up Here?

I.am.alive.

Sure, it's been forever since I posted.  The last couple of months I've been bouncing around all over the place.  Some weeks I do well with my eating & exercise.  Some weeks, I don't.  Mostly don't.  Some days I do well.  Mostly, I don't.  It's pretty ridiculous.  I'm not sure what set me off, but, I've been thinking about it.  I think it was vacation.  If I have to blame anything, I'd blame that.  My hubby & I went on a little anniversary getaway in August, and I think that's when things started snowballing.  I let things slide.  Then about a month later, we went with friends to Washington, D.C.  I threw all caution to the wind.  Annnnnd since then, it's been completely hit or miss.  Mostly miss.

I can't seem to gain control.  At all.  Every morning, I wake up and think, "I've got this.  Today is different."  Then it's the same.  Plans change.  I'm weak.  I give in.  I eat too much.  I don't exercise.

I keep thinking about the upcoming holidays.  'Tis the season.  I know if I don't get a handle on things, I will end up way heavier than I am now.  Let's just say...I have been on the scale lately.  It's not pretty.  I'm probably up about 10 pounds.  Stupid.

My eating is not the only thing that's suffering.  I haven't been working out much, either.  I'm averaging twice a week.  Not enough.  I just need to amp up everything.  I need a plan.  As Phoebe on Friends says in one episode..."I don't even have a 'pluh'."  I really don't.  I need to work on that this week.

I wish it were easy.  I wish this post was "positive."  I've been wanting to post for some time, but I just haven't had anything to report.  I hope all of you are doing well, though.  I miss posting.  I just wanted to let you know you shouldn't count me out yet.  I'm NOT done yet.


2 comments:

  1. and we arent done cheering for you.

    encouraging you onward.

    MizFit

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  2. I agree with Carla, you can so do this! Just put your plan together...Start out simple and add things as time goes on. Just get started. Wouldn't it be great if you lost a bunch of weight before New Years? You can do it!!

    Keep focused!

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