I.am.alive.
Sure, it's been forever since I posted. The last couple of months I've been bouncing around all over the place. Some weeks I do well with my eating & exercise. Some weeks, I don't. Mostly don't. Some days I do well. Mostly, I don't. It's pretty ridiculous. I'm not sure what set me off, but, I've been thinking about it. I think it was vacation. If I have to blame anything, I'd blame that. My hubby & I went on a little anniversary getaway in August, and I think that's when things started snowballing. I let things slide. Then about a month later, we went with friends to Washington, D.C. I threw all caution to the wind. Annnnnd since then, it's been completely hit or miss. Mostly miss.
I can't seem to gain control. At all. Every morning, I wake up and think, "I've got this. Today is different." Then it's the same. Plans change. I'm weak. I give in. I eat too much. I don't exercise.
I keep thinking about the upcoming holidays. 'Tis the season. I know if I don't get a handle on things, I will end up way heavier than I am now. Let's just say...I have been on the scale lately. It's not pretty. I'm probably up about 10 pounds. Stupid.
My eating is not the only thing that's suffering. I haven't been working out much, either. I'm averaging twice a week. Not enough. I just need to amp up everything. I need a plan. As Phoebe on Friends says in one episode..."I don't even have a 'pluh'." I really don't. I need to work on that this week.
I wish it were easy. I wish this post was "positive." I've been wanting to post for some time, but I just haven't had anything to report. I hope all of you are doing well, though. I miss posting. I just wanted to let you know you shouldn't count me out yet. I'm NOT done yet.
