Weigh-In | 12.13.10



Wow...I'm just barely eeking this blog out in time.  I started it earlier, but ran out of time.  I got caught up in making a Christmas present this evening, and time got away from me!!!

First things first, I'm down 1/2 of a pound.  Grand total:  29.5!  This week wasn't the greatest of weeks, but it wasn't the worst, either.  Eating was decent (at best), I suppose.  Exercise, eh...not too bad.  I made it out to my first live Turbo Kick class in over a year, I believe.  That was fun! 

I had a pretty good start to my week.  I ate really well today.  One area I have been failing miserably in is being prepared.  I HAAAATE grocery shopping.  I put it off, and put if off.  Finally, I decided to go yesterday.  I totally stocked up, and feel more in control!!  Speaking of which...I HATE when I finally go to the store after bout of procrastination.  I.WANT.TO.EAT.EVERYTHING!!!  Last night I didn't fix dinner.  Hubby & I had eaten a good meal after church with friends...so we just kind of snacked all evening!  It's like I wanted to try one of everything!!!!  I know full well I probably would've been down a little more if it hadn't been for that little "episode."  Ugh.  Ridiculous.  I am planning to go to the store more regularly now.  I can't have that happening!

I've been thinking a lot about my weight-loss goals, since I hit the 10% mark.  I would like to set up a little goal/reward system.  I have a few goals in mind, other than my ultimate goal.  Hopefully I can finalize them in the next week or so and post them for you!  I'm trying to think of good rewards to go along with them.

What are some of the ways you like reward yourself after hitting a weight-loss goal?

Progress.....

So ok, I'm getting a little bored with this blog.  I've been mainly posting my weigh-ins, and that's about it.  Sometimes there's a little more......but I don't know... I think I need to step it up a little.  I'm not sure how, though.  I've been trying to find some new blogs to inspire me...

This week has been going pretty well.  Since I last wrote, I met a woman in my neighborhood - and we've been walking.  Her name is Wendy.  She stopped me when I was on my way in from a run and we got to talking...she's been wanting a walking buddy.  So we've been walking quite a bit.  In fact, after our last walk - we were up to almost 15 miles!  We're still trying to work out our schedules and commitments and such - but we're both on the same page.  Both of us want to kick this fat to the curb!

I finished up week 7 of Couch To 5K today.  All 3 workouts were runs of 25 minutes.  They have all gone pretty well.  Most of the time I wish my neighborhood wasn't mostly uphill.  Though I think that it's making me stronger - since I'm pushing through it.  It's kinda fun sometimes.  I'll push myself up one hill, you know...dying by the top of it - and I get to kinda "fly" down the other side.  I feel like a "real" runner then.  Ha! 

I have also been doing some Turbo Kick.  I need to step that up a little.  I haven't done it since Saturday.  I did two 45(ish) minutes videos then.  I'm a glutton for punishment, really.  I've been pushing myself really hard on Saturdays.  After the videos Saturday, I went out for a 3+ mile walk with Wendy.  Again....lots of hills....they kick our butts.  I'm enjoying getting to know Wendy - it's nice to have some support. :)

So...I'm *hoping* I'm down this week.  After last week's maintain - I need it.  I've been working hard and eating well, so I feel like I totally deserve it this week!  Fingers crossed. :)

CONSTANT PEP-TALKS

So, now that I've embarked on this journey - I realize that I need constant pep-talks.  I'm constantly giving myself a pep-talk!  When I'm making food choices, when I need to exercise...all the time. 

I woke up at 6:30 on the dot this morning.  I immediately thought, "I feel really good!"  I slept SO well!  I know it's because I did Turbo Kick pretty close to bedtime last night.  So, I'm thinking, "I should really go out and run this morning."  I had just enough time.  I sat up on the edge of the bed and just sat there.  I knew I should go........but I was so torn between snuggling back underneath the covers with my hubby.  To sleep for a 1/2 hour.  I mean, was it really worth it??  I had to do the pep-talk.  After about 5 minutes, it worked.  I went out to do C25K.  It was challenging - since I started a new week today.  The running was upped on me today.  From 60 seconds at a time to 3 minutes.  That's a pretty good jump.  I mean, I've been conditioned to do over 3 miles before....but that was a while back!  It's rough starting over!  The cooler temperature totally helped me out this morning, though.  I REALLY need to start getting up and working out in the a.m.

So, it's confession time.  Some of you from Facebook know that I checked in at Little Mexico last night.  *sigh*  I didn't eat well.  Granted, Scott & I typically order fajitas and share them - and did so last night.  I guess it's not horrible if we're sharing.  However, the CHIPS get me every time!  I could probably LIVE on chips & salsa.  Of course, our waitress asks right out of the gate if we wanted cheese dip.  Dang it....OF COURSE I WANT CHEESE DIP!!!! Ha!  So, we got it, and it was so good!  I ate way too much of it.  I guess it's good to do that every once in a while, though.  As long as you're back in the game immediately!  I did work out last night - so I'm hoping it didn't completely sabotage me!

So, originally I had decided to weigh-in on Wednesdays, since that's the day I started.  Earlier this week I realized that I started Weight Watchers on a Thursday - so that should be my official weigh-in.  Tomorrow I will post the results.  Now I somehow need to get C25K on that schedule.  Then everything will be in sync.

Join Me...

So ok, I have a skinny girl living inside me.  I promise I'm not schizophrenic.
You see, this skinny girl has been with me pretty much all my life.  She's been trapped inside this fat girl's body.  She's dying to come out.  Seriously.  I think if I don't let her come out now - she's going to kill me.  Either that or obesity will.  So, if I decide to stay the way I am, either way, I'm gonna die.

I have been overweight since about age 7.  I think I started to eat my feelings around that age.  My parents went through a pretty bad divorce, and my mom, my sister and I moved from North Carolina back to WV to live with my grandparents.  Ya know, I LOVE my Mamaw's cooking, but let's just say it's "down home."  It's great!  In no way, shape, or form do I really actually blame my weight problems on either of these factors.  Let's just say they didn't help any, ok?

I could rattle on and tell you story after story of how my weight has affected my life.  I could go on and on and tell you how much better my life would be if I had been thin.  Eh.  Honestly, I love my life.  Aside from weight, are there things I'd like to change?  Sure!  However, I serve an amazing God, I have an awesome husband, and wonderful family & friends.  I have a great life.  Weight has NOT affected these good things in my life!

Ok, I'm not going to lie, this isn't an incredibly well thought out blog.  It may NEVER be.  It is, however, going to document the skinny girl's journey to freedom.  Let me tell you a little bit about the skinny girl.  We're not well acquainted, but, I do know the girl has STYLE!  All my life, I have in some way wanted to be "fashionable."  Even though I LOVE me some Lane Bryant, sometimes it just doesn't hit the spot.  I would LOVE to be able to go into a store and pick out just about anything (within reason haha) and know that it's going to look good!  Again, I try to be fashionable now....and I feel like sometimes I succeed.  Other times I get frustrated and don't really care.  I've always tried to play up my good attributes.  I've always kept good care of my hair.  I just about always accessorize in some way.  I LOVE accessories!  Not this this blog is AT ALL about this - but, I'm in the beginning stages of starting a store on Etsy selling handmade accessories.  And more.  Maybe I'll tell you more about that at some point.

That was a long paragraph - and I don't really care to change it.  Instead of eating my feelings right now - I'm writing them! 

So, this is actually day 2 of skinny girl's journey to freedom.  I don't have EVERYTHING planned out yet.  I've been kind of gearing up to do this for a while.  On Sunday at church, our youth intern's message talked about the impossible things in our lives - and how they are ALL possible with God.  He asked us to write something "impossible" in our lives on an index card.  At the end of the message, he asked us to come and shred that index card.  Symbolizing the fact that it's NOT impossible.  Totally true.  I actually didn't go up and shred anything.....I wrote down my weight problem, but, didn't shred it because at the time, I thought, "Eh...I KNOW that this is NOT impossible for me (with God)."  I didn't think there was a need to symbolize it, because I knew.  Maybe I should have.  It's still in my purse.  I'll shred it tomorrow at work...haha.

The reason I know it's not impossible?  I've lost SO MANY pounds over the years.  In the last 5 years I've had 2 successful weight-loss attempts using the Weight Watchers plan.  It's a really good plan.  Between the attempts, I lost a total of 80 pounds.  That sounds massive.  It was.  Except that I've gained it all back.  My latest attempt was last summer.  I had my wedding coming up, and I wanted to look my best.  I lost 30 pounds.  I ran and I took my now sister-in-law's Turbo Kick class.  I ate right.  I was so on-track and was ready to keep going after the wedding.  Somehow, I lost sight of that.  Maybe it was the endless food on the honeymoon?  All-inclusive resorts are amazing.......but, man...watch out!  There's food EVERYWHERE!  Who knows?  That may have just set me off.....and I QUICKLY fell back into bad habits.  I have explored the possibility of my birth control causing *some* of it, and I have recently switched after my doc said that it was highly probable.  I've never gained 30 pounds in one year.....so it was a concern.  I've always been a gradual gainer, or a maintainer.

So, yesterday was really day one.  I decided to go out and walk on my lunch.  I went out in the 90+ degree heat and I walked for 50 minutes.  I went home...and maybe this was a little extreme, but I went out for day one of the Couch To 5K program.  For anyone interested - go to C25K.com  If you have an iPhone, there's a great app under that name.  Day 2 (today), not as extreme, but, I fired up a Turbo Kick DVD.  I used to be able to do that stuff pretty well, but man....I am OUT OF SHAPE!  I couldn't believe it....I had to stop and rest.  It kind of made me mad!

So, again I say - I don't have a plan, but I'm formulating it.  I may do the Weight Watchers plan on my own.  I don't dig the meetings so much.  Most I've gone to are boring and I don't find myself getting much out of them.  Maybe it's the leaders?  I don't know.  As of now, I'm really just trying to be more conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth and exercising.  After all, food moderation and exercise are key.  I don't care what plan you're on.  It all comes back to that.

Well, I know this has been a very rambly post, but stay tuned and as the pounds come off!   I'm not sure what will actually happen here, but I'm anxious to start.  I'll share some great recipes that I come across or "invent."  I'll share how I'm working out.  New foods I try.  I'll share my success and God forbid, failures. 

Thanks for reading and hopefully joining me.  I can't wait to introduce you to the skinny girl!