Sunday, March 18, 2012

I'm baaaaaaaacckk...

Did you miss me?

Wow, I'm impressed!  After a 4 month break - I come back to my blog and find that you're all still here!  I was afraid I'd log on and find that I had about 4 followers (if that many!).

I hope you're all doing well.  Me, aside from gaining back about every pound I lost....I'm doing GREAT!  Ha.  No, seriously...I've gained about all of it back.  I haven't weighed myself in about a week and a half......and I know then...I was really close.

That's ok, though.  Ya know?  I'm back.  I'm ready.  I'm GOING to do this.

Today I went on a loooonnnggg walk.  Just me & my Elevation Worship Pandora station.  Oh...and God.  Don't let me forget Him... He TOTALLY showed up.  It's because of Him, that I'm sitting here writing this blog now.  I started thinking about things....thinking about this last year or much I've learned, how much I've grown, and how I know God has more for me.

I'm sure you guys all know this - or have at least heard it....but I'm coming to finally realize that I am soooooo much more than a number on a scale.  That's one of the first things I started thinking about this afternoon.  I've heard it before....but I don't think it was able to truly soak in until today.  I'm soooo much more than that.  I'm so much more than fat.  So much more than food.  God has a greater plan for me.  One that does not involve sitting down in front of the TV and stuffing my face every evening.  After all, I have DVR!  Come on!  I feel that I am to go after this weight-loss goal of mine.  That I'm to share what I'm I'm doing it...and help encourage others to join me & do the same.  What that is going to look like, I don't know right now.

All I know is that I'm here.  I'm ready for change. Long-lasting change.  I know I am strong.  I know I CAN work out hard.  I CAN do more than what I'm doing now.  I CAN do this.  I have a bad habit of going full-throttle after this goal........losing a good deal of weight, and then stalling out.  I cheat.   I work out less.  Slowly I start packing the weight back on.  Until it slaps me in the face one day.  I see a picture.  I realize just how out-of-control I am.  I'm ready to break that cycle.

I know my true beauty lies within.  I'm far from perfect...I fail God every day - in different ways.  But God has worked hard on me the last 12 years.  I want the outside of my body to finally....FINALLY reflect the inside.  I want to take care of my body so that I can be used to my full potential.  It's time.  The time is now.     I'm going to go and start working on my plan............and I'll see you all for weigh-in tomorrow.  Time to face the music.  Time for the skinny girl to FINALLY be set free.  Once and for all.

Anyone wanna join me?  It's easier when someone comes alongside ya...Let's do this!


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

How Did I End Up Here?

Sure, it's been forever since I posted.  The last couple of months I've been bouncing around all over the place.  Some weeks I do well with my eating & exercise.  Some weeks, I don't.  Mostly don't.  Some days I do well.  Mostly, I don't.  It's pretty ridiculous.  I'm not sure what set me off, but, I've been thinking about it.  I think it was vacation.  If I have to blame anything, I'd blame that.  My hubby & I went on a little anniversary getaway in August, and I think that's when things started snowballing.  I let things slide.  Then about a month later, we went with friends to Washington, D.C.  I threw all caution to the wind.  Annnnnd since then, it's been completely hit or miss.  Mostly miss.

I can't seem to gain control.  At all.  Every morning, I wake up and think, "I've got this.  Today is different."  Then it's the same.  Plans change.  I'm weak.  I give in.  I eat too much.  I don't exercise.

I keep thinking about the upcoming holidays.  'Tis the season.  I know if I don't get a handle on things, I will end up way heavier than I am now.  Let's just say...I have been on the scale lately.  It's not pretty.  I'm probably up about 10 pounds.  Stupid.

My eating is not the only thing that's suffering.  I haven't been working out much, either.  I'm averaging twice a week.  Not enough.  I just need to amp up everything.  I need a plan.  As Phoebe on Friends says in one episode..."I don't even have a 'pluh'."  I really don't.  I need to work on that this week.

I wish it were easy.  I wish this post was "positive."  I've been wanting to post for some time, but I just haven't had anything to report.  I hope all of you are doing well, though.  I miss posting.  I just wanted to let you know you shouldn't count me out yet.  I'm NOT done yet.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Weigh-In | 8.8.11

Hold the phone.....yes...I'm posting on time for once!

I've sat down and made it a priority.

One strange fact to note about this:  I'm NOT down.  I'm actually up.  Yeah, I know.

I'm actually up a total of 3 pounds from my weigh-in 2 weeks ago.  C'est la vie.  I was a pig this weekend.  Admitted.  Caution to the wind..........ate what I felt like....and that was that.  Chinese (twice).  Movie theater popcorn.  Chicken fingers & fries.  Cheese dip & chips.  Yep.  IDIOT!

Done.  Moving on.  It doesn't matter.  The only thing that matters now - is what I do from here on out. 
Today went pretty well - despite poor planning.  I didn't have time to pack a lunch, but - I did ok on the fly.  I was under my calories today....even more after Turbo.  I just have to keep the ball rolling. 

Next week, a loss will be recorded.  Mark my words. :)

Have a great week!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Weigh-In | 8.1.11

So, it's Thursday already?!  Where does time go?

Yep...once again, life has got in the way (I almost typed "weigh." - Ha!). 
This week....................................I was up.  To be honest, I was surprised.  It wasn't a perfect week - but, hey - it wasn't bad, either - by any means.  I was only up by just over a 1/2 lb. (.6).  Still yet - it was up.
Being up ALWAYS throws me off.  Especially when it comes to blogging.  Hate that.  I've meant to do it.....but, just haven't really got around to it. 

However, here I am...blogging about it anyway.  I've been doing ok this week.  I've felt a little under the weather.  As of now - I've done 4 workouts in 4 days....with tonight's Turbo Kick class making 5!  I took two Turbo Kick classes on Tuesday!  That was pretty tough - but, my SIL just added a 2nd class to Tuesday nights.  It was an off night for me....I wasn't feeling great, so I didn't put my all in it.  I was seriously expecting to burn over 1,000 calories, but came out just under (964, I believe).  It was still a great burn!

On Sunday I started the Couch To 5K program again.  If you've been reading a while, you know I've already completed this - and may wonder why.  Well, I've been trying to come up with a good way to increase my speed.  I thought that if I go through the program again - running at a higher speed, it should get me all prepped to improve my time at the Prevent Cancer 5K in September.  What do you think?  Think it will work?  I've only completed one workout this week, but I'm planning to finish them on time.  Even if I have to run all weekend!  Ha!  I really felt that workout on Sunday.  It wasn't hard for me, but I really felt that run in my hips the next couple of days!  It does feel good to push yourself! 

Well, that's about all the time I have today.... I hope your week is going well, wherever you are! :)

Monday, July 25, 2011

Weigh-In | 7.25.11

I LOVE losing weight! :)

Yep...I lost again this week!  Score!  It feels amazing! :)

To be honest, I wasn't sure what the scale was going to say today.  I figured I would be down, but I wasn't expecting a 2 pound loss!  This past week was a little tough.  As I mentioned last week - I had Vacation Bible School at church, and it was harder to get those workouts in - as well as eat "right."  Fortunately, since the theme was "Fit For Jesus," we had a lot of healthy snacks around.  It was still kinda rough, though.  Most nights, the snacks weren't enough - and I didn't feel like cooking anything when I got home.  So, I had some random fast food for dinner.. 

Also, on Saturday - I had great intentions of working out, BUT, I vegged out on the couch all day!  To be quite honest - it was amazing.  I wasted away a whole Saturday, though!  I hate that!  I didn't eat very well that day, either.  Oh well... I made up for a couple workouts yesterday.  I worked out for almost 3 hours and burned 1502 calories.. :)  I'm feeling that today!  I love it!

I've really been noticing some results of my hard work lately....and it's super-encouraging!  I haven't been getting that for a long time!  I'm really hoping this weight will just keep rolling off.  In the past, I've always got stuck around the 250s....and then it starts coming off faster.  I don't know what happens there....?  So here we go....I'm rockin' this.... I'm excited - and ready to keep moving forward... I'm only 7 pounds away from my wedding weight!  It's taking a long time, but, I'm getting there!  In just a little over 2 weeks - I will hit the 1 year mark on my journey.  In some ways, time has flown by - but then again - it's dragged at points......

I'm gonna try super-hard to meet that wedding weight goal by then!  :) 

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Weigh-In | 7.18.11

Ok, so my post is still late, BUT, I'm improving.  Early a.m. Tuesday is waaaay better than late Wednesday. :)  I had this crazy coughing fit this morning, and couldn't get back to goes nothing!

Soooo, guess who had an AMAZING week?  ME! :)  No beating around the making excuses this week (not that I would ever do that...).  I did what I was supposed to do last week.  I ate very well and I worked out 6 days!  YES!  The fruits of my labor?  FOUR.POINT.FOUR.POUNDS.  BONUS!  :)

So, I'm pretty stinkin' happy about that.  I Turbo Kicked, walked, ran, played volleyball, swam & even danced a little.......yeah - I did a lot last week!  This week I've set out to be just as successful.  It's hard, though.  It's extremely easy to fall back into old patterns.  I did really well all day yesterday....but had a slight mishap with a box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch in the evening.  I wanted something sweet.  I was eating the stuff dry out of the box.  Annnnd I ate a bunch of it.  I wasn't hungry.  I just enjoyed the taste of it.  Stupid.  I finally had to make myself put the stuff away!  It was odd.  I've been trying hard to pay close attention to when I'm hungry and when I'm not.  Yesterday afternoon at work - I hit that 3pm slump.....and I really, really wanted a Reese cup.  I didn't get one, though.  I wasn't hungry.  I ended up trying to curb the craving with a diet Dr. Pepper.  I don't drink much soda, but, this seemed to help.

One thing that has really helped this week - was getting a new friend involved in my journey.  I've been talking with my new friend from church, Sarah about fitness.......and we've got this kinda cool "accountability" thing going on.  She's signed up on MyFitnessPal, and we've been texting about this kinda stuff.  We've started sending random pics of what we're eating.....or just talking about it.  We're not judgmental or critical of each's just some extra support.  It's nice to know someone else is in this with me.  :)  She rocks!

Oh....and this week is gonna be pretty fun!  Later this week is Vacation Bible School at my church.  Wanna know what the theme is?  Fitness.  Healthy Lifestyle.  YEAH!  It's called "Fit For Jesus."  The church has developed the program themselves & we're excited about it!  I think it's awesome to be teaching children about living a healthy lifestyle at an early age!  Add Jesus into that mix....AMAZING.  Sarah & myself are both involved in the worship part of VBS - so we'll be onstage singing & dancing this week.  I'm still laughing about getting myself into this.......I'm so not a dancer.   However, I'm doing it - and I'm hoping to just be silly with it and burn some extra calories this week!

Well friends, I hope you all have a great week! 

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Weigh-In | 7.11.11

Blah.  Where does time go? :( 

Once again, I find myself apologizing for a late post.  This week is flying by.

So ok...I didn't hold onto the loss I was expecting.  In fact,  I was up.  Seriously? *sigh*
Not a great way to start the week.  Oh well. 

It was just 1.4 lbs.  Nothing horrible.  Actually, this morning I stepped on the scale and was pleased.  I was down.  So, things are looking up.  Or should I say down?  Haha.

That's all I have time for today.  I hope you're all having a good week! :)