How Did I End Up Here?

I.am.alive.

Sure, it's been forever since I posted.  The last couple of months I've been bouncing around all over the place.  Some weeks I do well with my eating & exercise.  Some weeks, I don't.  Mostly don't.  Some days I do well.  Mostly, I don't.  It's pretty ridiculous.  I'm not sure what set me off, but, I've been thinking about it.  I think it was vacation.  If I have to blame anything, I'd blame that.  My hubby & I went on a little anniversary getaway in August, and I think that's when things started snowballing.  I let things slide.  Then about a month later, we went with friends to Washington, D.C.  I threw all caution to the wind.  Annnnnd since then, it's been completely hit or miss.  Mostly miss.

I can't seem to gain control.  At all.  Every morning, I wake up and think, "I've got this.  Today is different."  Then it's the same.  Plans change.  I'm weak.  I give in.  I eat too much.  I don't exercise.

I keep thinking about the upcoming holidays.  'Tis the season.  I know if I don't get a handle on things, I will end up way heavier than I am now.  Let's just say...I have been on the scale lately.  It's not pretty.  I'm probably up about 10 pounds.  Stupid.

My eating is not the only thing that's suffering.  I haven't been working out much, either.  I'm averaging twice a week.  Not enough.  I just need to amp up everything.  I need a plan.  As Phoebe on Friends says in one episode..."I don't even have a 'pluh'."  I really don't.  I need to work on that this week.

I wish it were easy.  I wish this post was "positive."  I've been wanting to post for some time, but I just haven't had anything to report.  I hope all of you are doing well, though.  I miss posting.  I just wanted to let you know you shouldn't count me out yet.  I'm NOT done yet.